my mind wanders... on a thought of a green sunset

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Happy Halloween. Awoo.

I think I am a bit intoxicated while writing this post. But, take note, my blood alcohol level is not that high; what I drank was a wish (just a shot of some bitter whiskey) from my cousin since it was his birthday; and I have another migraine attack; and I am tired and my body is yearning for sleep. (This post is so delayed. I was about to post it last night; but I guess dial-ups aren't so friendly nowadays.)

My sentence construction has become lengthy and stupid. There are always periods. There are ends to things. I love sustaining that illusion that things are continuous, never ending. And I really believe that for now, my higher mental processes are temporarily impaired. Alcohol and cake don't mix. Happy birthday!

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I have been watching the third season of House. I really prefer it than Grey's Anatomy, though House is too technical and medical that my nose bleeds. Grey's Anatomy is good, but it’s more drama and lots of sex. Though I have to admit my soul is tarnished, I favor the sarcasm of Gregory House over Meredith Grey's love (and sex) life.

The third season of House has more perplexing cases that glues me to my seat (to which in my case, the floor, since I just lie down the wooden parquet and watch intently) and makes me skip some meals. I love the twists in the story and the pathology (I am SO looking forward to N-4, Pathophysiology). I am also fascinated by House's irrational demeanor and his interest for the dysfunctional. Though it is fictional, it is really cool.

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I am getting heavier! I have been checking my weight and my fat index on the machine in Mercury Drugstore Padre Faura (which costs five pesos). I intermittently tried the machine for any weight gains. From 136 pounds, now I am 140 pounds with 18% body fat from a meager 8% before!

Another terrible aim of mine is to fatten myself up, with a terrible condition though. I want everything in me to fill up with a little blubber, but I want my tummy out of the story. It really DOES SOUND IMPOSSIBLE (actually it isn't; there is always liposuction, or even that thing Marie France offers that doesn't use needles, but that is out of the question) but I am challenging myself to it. I want my face to fatten up a little bit, because I look a little gaunt; but I don't want to lose my flat tummy.

So, my food intake has increased significantly, and my allowance is being strained by this voracious appetite of mine. Maybe I have parasites. I may resort to antihelminthics someday. Haha.

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I feel sad about the fact that Halloween is not that scary anymore, scary, in a childish sense. My fears have become more, err, civilized (during Anthropology class I fear my 85-year old professor; now I fear my grades). When I see carved pumpkins now, I do not imagine the villainous laugh or the walking straw men. I think pumpkin soup. When I see masks that show malevolent facades or monstrous looks on stalls, I think about, err, some people (who I do not want to mention; I want a peaceful life!). And when I think of a Halloween party, I fear not the things to be mentioned in the party, but how to make an excuse on why attend such party. I am still acrophobic though.

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I really liked this text message I received recently from a block mate.

Tinatamad ka na bang dalawin ang iyong mga loved ones sa sementeryo?

Text DALAW ON sa 2366.

Sila mismo ang dadalaw sa'yo.

Text na!

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I got a 1.5 on my PE subject, Arnis. No stick shall threaten me.

Just kidding.

Ciao~

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